LilyMurrell

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Unknowing by LilyMurrell, literature

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Unknowing

I wish I could feel So that I might heal And hold what we lost Of a great cost It all slipped away In less than a day And I feel so cold As memories grow old My mind wanders Yet never ponders What happened to our bond And of each other we were so fond But I cannnot remember Back to that December It feels so long ago Now I stand and see a foe I look over my shoulder And my heart grows colder Mocking me with pictures Making emotional mixtures I can feel the tears As they turn into years My fears don't end 'Cause this heart won't mend And I wonder if I die If I tell another lie That hides our love As I stay silent like

Pass Me Up... Or Down by LilyMurrell, literature

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Pass Me Up... Or Down

There was a smirk On his face As he looked at me Looked like he wanted to eat me There was that sparkle in his eyes Saying he wanted more Without words And that was when I knew He wasn't the same anymore That little boy I knew Grew up with Shared so many Childhood memories with Was gone And was replaced By a beast A horrible beast That made me sick To my stomach Made my insides turn Summersault and roll Like I was too good To let pass by He would swallow me In one gulp Barely a chance to savor Anything if he wanted Before I would be passed on Right to the next person Without a care Because I was the luggage The

I Fake It For You by LilyMurrell, literature

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I Fake It For You

And I fake it for you Every single day I fake the smiles The laugh isn't real I've just been tired And it's cause of you You take up my mind Worry me to no end Wear me down And break me apart But I can't tell you that I can't show it Because I won't hurt you Or give you that guilt So I suck it up Deal with it each day Here you come So I smile big Before I turn around And let it fade away

Back In Time by LilyMurrell, literature

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Back In Time

I wish I could go back in time To when I barely knew you I knew your name I knew your face You were just a person there Who didn't occupy my mind When there was no us When there was nothing between us Nothing to be valued Nothing to be scared of Everything open Everything as right as rain But look at us now I feel like we can't talk Face to face And we only see each other To hold each other And it feels so wrong When my face turns red But I feel more But you don't I don't want desire I don't want these feelings When they are wearing me down Taking away I can't sleep I can't dream And don't think this is worth it Ho

Small Regrets by LilyMurrell, literature

Envisioning by LilyMurrell, literature

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Envisioning

Dark gray walls On all four sides A light from the ceiling One chair in the middle He sits on the chair Hair covering his forehead And stark blue eyes Knees buckled together Arms wrap around the chair Feeling his chest Running down his jaw Bunching up his shirt Look at those eyes And what do you see? Pain, contempt, betrayal? Lust? But who sits behind the chair Controlling the arms That dance, that torture And tease to no end? So let him spin around And shine the light on her Now it's his arms And legs locked around her Blankly she sits Her knees together, feet apart The concrete cold Through her jeans And hands ru

Be Silent by LilyMurrell, literature

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Be Silent

Be silent And feel my words Run across your skin Like lips across your chest Listen to me now Feel my pain Screams can be silent If you ignore the protests A heart bleeds blood The gun does too Making a wound All the more prominent I'll burn the sage Who needs advice? From a guy who's had That many girls Do you know the feeling? Honesty is best But is it better Than a girl on your hips? So are your feelings deeper Than your tongue In that girl's mouth Because I have doubts So please, dear Be silent I'm healing a heart Without your lips

Me vs. Myself by LilyMurrell, literature

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Me vs. Myself

I think I might But I'm really not sure Fear holds me back But he does too Reluctant to leave Yet I want to flee Afraid to let go 'Cause I want you too Something stands In my way I can't get to you I think it's me So there you are Ready to heal But I stand in the way Unsure of you If you're just like him It'll happen again And I want to trust you Still I'm in my way Help me see You're the one for me That you're someone safe And I'll be okay.

The Future? by LilyMurrell, literature

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The Future?

I hope you're glad I'm like this now You left me a scar I can't ignore Too tentative to believe Or ever love again These scars show through They're ugly, it's true I am stopped by you From all we've been though You think all is well Through far from true You've ruined my future At least for a while I hide from love Like I hide from you A stain in my mind A stain on my heart I was pierced through And can't forget you So where's my future? It's sealed up tight I fear what will come And that he'll be like you.

Remembering by LilyMurrell, literature

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Remembering

If I close my eyes And shut out the world Maybe I'll remember you For another moment or two I want to remember The way you smile I want to feel The look of your eyes I try to think Of the times you frowned To see if I was there To turn it around But I forget the laugh It slips away And my days grow dark Without you there Hope still lingers Even without you For there is him And he's almost as good Though he's not you He heals me through Puts wings on my back And holds me true I'll remember you But I'll remember him too And all we've been though So here's too the future...

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Unknowing by LilyMurrell, literature

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Pass Me Up... Or Down by LilyMurrell, literature

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Pass Me Up... Or Down

I Fake It For You by LilyMurrell, literature

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I Fake It For You

Back In Time by LilyMurrell, literature

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Back In Time

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Envisioning by LilyMurrell, literature

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Be Silent by LilyMurrell, literature

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Be Silent

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Remembering by LilyMurrell, literature

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About LilyMurrell

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Deviant for 15 years
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Life is like a box of colored pencils.

You never know what you're going to get.
You may not like the color.

But if you're like the majority of the population, you suck it up and go on with life.

And people take pictures of you as well.

Hi, my name Lily Murrell... possibly. My pen name, my artist's names, etc. Yes, I sketch, but you won't be seeing a lot with that because I have a bad scanner. Technically, I could take pictures of the sketches, but do I really want to? Not really. ESPECIALLY after someone said something I drew looked like a c-section scar. But since then, I have improved. Just ask Kara (love you, girly!). : )

When life is chaotic, you just want to sit down and think. Well, at least, I do.

And one more thing? I'm not in love. Because that is pain.

AHAHAHA, but I fail and end up in that situation anyway because I'm pathetic. OUCH.

Current Residence: My dreams...
Print preference: 24*36
Favourite genre of music: Rock/ Alternative
Favourite photographer: Many, many people.
Favourite style of art: Oil On Canvas/ Digital Media/ Sketch
Operating System: Mac (I Wish)
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Shell of choice: The kind you find on the ocean beach. : )
Favourite cartoon character: If Jace Wayland were a character...
Personal Quote: "You're a wolf."

Favourite Visual Artist

Claude Monet

Favourite Movies

iRobot, Eagle Eye, Jumper, Star Trek (!!!!)

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Coldplay, Lifehouse, One Republic, The Whtie Tie Affair, The Last Goodnight

Favourite Writers

Garth Nix, Cassandra Clare

Favourite Games

Skiing...?

Favourite Gaming Platform

My Brain

Tools of the Trade

Computer, Pen and Paper, Imagination, Pencils

Other Interests

Architecture, Photography, Writing, Sketching, Music

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LilyMurrell

Dec 28, 2009

New Years Resolutions Are...

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Good, they help you set goals

Overrated. Pssh, who needs them?

I always forget or never go through with mine...

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LilyMurrell

Dec 26, 2009

December Brings...

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:thumb147505364: What is there not to love about this?  I mean, really.  If my back yard looked like that, I'd by a space heater and be camped out there for the whole dang winter. Thank you to *Sbaa for the 3 month membership (: I love it, and my visits to deviantART will increase as long as semester finals don't get in the way -_- Oh joy, finals.  January is a busy month, mostly because of the band's trip to EWU and the possiblity of MDP (Manhattan Dance Project!). Which, by the way, is really intimidating if you watch some of the other dancers.  I met Katie while I was in California too which was SUPER exciting! :D SO STOKED ABOUT THAT I A

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LilyMurrell

Nov 20, 2009

Going Back In Time...

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I haven't been on deviantART in forever.  I haven't been on anything in forever.  I'm so tired, and there's all this crap nagging at my mind, and I can only tell one person at Sammamish.  I wish I could go back in time and undo some things.  Not... what you're probably thinking.  It's more resent.  I wouldn't say that I necessarily regret it, no.  Everything's been great!  Ha. Ha. Not. 24 to 48 hours left.  And then he's going to better place. Remind me to shut up and not complain next time. But... I heard what I didn't want to hear.  Because it's so similar to something else that happened before (this time, it is what you're thinking if y